“Today, I became an adulteress. In less than a few hours, I’m meeting my AP (affair partner) in a hotel,” one woman on r/adultery explained.
“It has been a while since I’m considering this. It took me about two years to reflect on what being an adulterer means. So, rest assured, this is not an easy decision I made.”
Me too, lady, me too.
I thought and thought until my head was full.
Can I do this?
Should I do this?
How can I live with myself when I do this?
She thought:
“Why do I want this?”
“Can I compensate with something else in my life?”
”How do I deal with the consequences?”
And the nitty gritty.
”Where do I find an AP?”
”How to arrange this?”
That’s where I was so many years ago.
So many questions until that point of no return.
“Lust is good,” she wrote. It immediately reminded me of Gordon Gekko in Wall Street, saying, “Greed is good.” There’s a reason why lust and greed are deadly sins.
“I know I will be just fine. Now I’m going to get ready,” she finished.
Adulterers on r/adultery answered:
“I hope it’s everything you want it to be.”
“Ahhhh….I remember my first day as well. I felt wonderful.”
“Good luck! Hope you have fun.”
“1st off, congrats!! Good on you for taking the leap, but also knowing what you want in life.”
“Awesome for stepping up and finding what you are looking for.”
And what happened? I was dying to know. Everyone who read her post was waiting to hear the result.
“Post an update!”
Well, it’s a bit of an adultery letdown. It wasn’t a happy ending (at least for her).
She explained, “I have mixed feelings about this. I don’t regret it and I don’t feel guilty. But I also don’t feel like I want to keep exploring with him and become exclusive APs. He was very nice, sweet, and very attentive. Very into me and passionate. I was at ease, and I enjoyed it, but at times it felt like we were not syncing well together.”
He’s going to get the old dumparoonie.
Poor dude. I feel sorry for him, but I also know how difficult it is to get your affair wish list granted.
She tried to explain her reasoning:
“It could be due to us being new for each other, or the unfamiliarity of the situation. Or maybe we aren’t the best match.”
Whatever it is, it’s not a “fucking-off-in-a-hotel-bed-in-the-sunset” kind of ending. It’s too bad. Yet, I bet she will eventually find exactly what she wants.
I know I did.
Tell me what your first day of affairing was like in the comments.